I am definitely feeling the post holiday blues tonight. H has the kids per our usual arrangement. I headed to the mall to make some returns that I needed to do. I usually LOVE shopping but just could not get into it tonight. The past few days were so nice that it is just hard to get into the normal routine. I also got a glimpse into what life could look like if H and I were able to start a new relationship.
For the first time in my life, I am currently eating dinner by myself. I am sitting at the bar. Talk about a 180 for this introvert. I normally just skip dinner if I am going to be alone but I was too busy at work today to get lunch so I was starving. Also I was done shopping and it was too early to head home. Last time I got home before h put the kids to bed and I could tell he was annoyed (he had a bad day at work which probably contributed to it). So I am giving him time with the kids and stay out for a bit. And push myself to get outside of my box. Plus I get a nice moral and a drink in piece and quiet without three little boys trying to get my attention. Gotta look for the positives.
