Coming Back To Life

[BrightFuture]

Thanks everybody for the wishes. We didn’t have a traditional Christmas. My sister invited me for dinner one night and before that we went downtown to look at the lights and eat. We had a good time.

I’ve been lurking here reading other treads during the past few days. The holidays are almost over for a lot of people. I’ve read some positive updates about the Christmas celebration, and some that were not so good. It is just starting for me though. H never wanted to celebrate Christmas and we never did any gifts. We went to other people’s dinners sometimes and he sent the cards and gifts to his family and friends. We always celebrated New Years with my sister’s family. We exchanged gifts and cards. My son also was getting his presents for the New Years, but not for Christmas.

So, as it was expected I didn’t get any messages from H, except an e-mail thanking me for depositing his check into his account and him transferring the money for the condo mortgage. I’m preparing myself mentally for Sunday or Monday when he is supposed to pick up his car and “stuff”.

I just had a couple of glasses of wine and now I’m getting ready to sort some of his things out and pack his remaining clothes, so I could give it to him when he comes. He didn’t ask for that, but I’m assuming that this is what he meant by the “stuff” in his e-mail. I already have a couple of boxes with his stuff sitting in the garage. I think I’m finally accepting the thought that this is over. It makes me feel sad, but I need to live up to my thread title and truly move on, so I can come back to a new life.