Well....never thought I would be saying this..but it looks like my m is going to survive...for any of you "oldies", you know some of my sitch...
I don't have alot of time for details, but my h called Sun..wanted to "talk"..of course I again thought the big D word..he came over...confessed the r with ff started as friends, but became more...realized that the best things are right before your eyes and you don't always see them..wants our m to start over..we kissed..the rest you can figure out!!!!! He left at 3, cause we couldn't sleep together(new double bed..too small)he sent me a dozen red roses at work, on card he said he knows I love daisies but hought I might accept these...I called him and thanked him, he again said "I know you don't care for roses, but that they seem to have a more special meaning..I asked him if htis was all a dream..as my emotions are so mixed up...more than the whole year he's been gone..he said no, no dream...I said we have to move slow..
Soooo much to take in.....will fill you in later....I guess I need some thoughts on why I am feeling insure..it is what I have prayed about, dreamed about...thought about for months..but had resolved the past few that it probably would not happen..and now...........
Great news put a link to your old thread here so those of us who've not kept up can get inspired by reading just what you went thru to get to this wonderful new thread!
As for your feeling insecure, hon I believe thats normal. Afterall, your mind set was on moving forward with or without H.
Just don't go back to more of the same behavior. Keep DBing and make the changes in you stay. As most say, you're work is just beginning. So roll up your sleeves!
I'm so happy for you! {{{{hoping}}}}
Please come back and keep us posted we are dying to hear more! LOL
I'm sooooo happy for you Sue ... you have been waiting a long time for this ... but you do know what they say about those wait don't ya?
... and oh LL is right ... the insecure feeling is a normal reaction to have ... I'm sure you're probably sore from pinching yourself all day long yesterday. Its kind of a role reversal here ... now its his turn to convince you this "change" is for real and here to stay ... just go with the flow of staying in the "now".
THANK YOU ALL...for your support...your caring.....I again don't havemuch time...h asked me to go with him for his bowling night...ff is his partner, but I don't think she will be there...I feel better today..called him and we talked a little..told him that I still feel unsure about my feelings..he said he can't figure out why I am not angry, bitter, why I did not scream and yell and hate him for what he has "done"...I said that I am afraid that might come later, he said if it is not now, maybe not.....said I must be a better person, cause he is not sure that he would take this as well if things were reversed..I said that love and forgiveness can be very strong...
Is this all for sure...he say's yes....gotta go...I even dressed like it is a new guy
Its kind of a role reversal here ... now its his turn to convince you this "change" is for real and here to stay ... just go with the flow of staying in the "now".
