How does having no expectations make sense when your BF is still in your life and saying I love you, seeing each other, etc. He I am not sure why its ok for him to have me strung along, but completely off of his priority list.
I know I have stated my story already but an update is that BF is really busy. He has work with his ambulance company, work as a reserve firefighter, and is about to start school. He has ZERO time for me and that is what got us here in the first place. I know he loves me. When I forced him out of our place it was because I felt completely neglected by him. He didn't want to move or break anything off, but he put forth little to no effort to save things. Now, I am DBing and he is still in my life, but not putting forth any effort still. Why am I surprised when I don't hear from him? Why am I happy when I do? Will he ever make our relationship his priority? How come I was so sure that I was unhappy with his neglect, and sure I wanted to move on and now I am not even sure of anything!? How do I remain supportive of his career, do my own thing, and stay positive that we will be together again? It seems like the more space I give him, the happier he is. If I don't call/text, he misses me. But missing me and wanting me in his daily life are two different things. I feel like a fool waiting. Is it my ego?
Just getting some stuff out of my head.
Standing by my man, but trying to GAL and not wait by the phone or read into his lack of actions.
Me:35 BF:36 Together 4.5 years lived together 2 years moved out 8-13 still "together" but not together. Confused. D11, D13 (from 1st marriage)
