Hmm, is this it? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7rK6O0YtBRY‎ or was it more singing/choir music?
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope
It's by TobyMac- lyrics to follow, I'm at work so couldnt check out the youtube.
TobyMac-Speaklife
Some days, life feels perfect. Other days it just ain't workin. The good, the bad, the right, the wrong And everything in between.
Though it's crazy, amazing We can turn a heart with the words we say. Mountains crumble with every syllable. Hope can live or die
So speak Life, speak Life. To the deadest darkest night. Speak life, speak Life. When the sun won't shine and you don't know why. Look into the eyes of the brokenhearted; Watch them come alive as soon as you speak hope, You speak love, you speak... You speak Life, (oh oh oh oh oh oh) You speak Life. (oh oh oh oh oh oh)
Some days the tongue gets twisted; Other days my thoughts just fall apart. I do, I don't, I will, I won't, It's like I'm drowning in the deep.
Well it's crazy to imagine, Words from our lips as the arms of compassion, Mountains crumble with every syllable. Hope can live or die.
So speak Life, speak Life. To the deadest darkest night. Speak life, speak Life. When the sun won't shine and you don't know why. Look into the eyes of the brokenhearted; Watch them come alive as soon as you speak hope, You speak love, you speak... You speak Life, (oh oh oh oh oh oh) You speak Life. (oh oh oh oh oh oh)
Lift your head a little higher, Spread the love like fire, Hope will fall like rain, When you speak life with the words you say.
Raise your thoughts a little higher, Use your words to inspire, Joy will fall like rain, When you speak life with the things you say.
Lift your head a little higher, Spread the love like fire, Hope will fall like rain, When you speak life with the words you say.
So speak Life, speak Life. To the deadest darkest night. Speak life, speak Life. When the sun won't shine and you don't know why. Look into the eyes of the brokenhearted; Watch them come alive as soon as you speak hope, You speak love, you speak... You speak Life, (oh oh oh oh oh oh) You speak Life. (oh oh oh oh oh oh)
You speak Life, (oh oh oh oh oh oh) You speak Life. (oh oh oh oh oh oh)
Some days life feels perfect.
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14
Her friend that I saw last night was at our house playing with our dog a couple days before BD. And last night her perfunctory "hey." was said with venom behind it. I wonder what kind stories are going around regarding me. I'm sure they're wonderful! wink
When we try to make up stories about what others are thinking we're often wrong. In my sitch I know that my friends (and I am grateful to have an amazing group of friends of all ages)didn't say anything ugly about H. They were honest with me but no one was advising me to do anything mean or hurtful. We didn't sit around and talk about him as if he were the devil. My friends were really just listening to me and supporting me through a very tough time. I was much more vocal than they were.
Would my friends have been uncomfortable had they run into him somewhere? Probably. It's a tough position for people who know both people in a couple on the rocks.
When we assume what's going on it colors your interactions. You don't know what's happening with her friends so you might as well think it's neutral and believe that this is tough for everyone.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
I got an email from W last night with the dental receipts, no jabs or emotion in this one that she sent. I replied as follows-
"Good morning W,
Thank you for getting those receipts to me. I will need the same kind of breakdown for that one ($40) as you provided for the one in April please (no rush.) I submitted a reimbursement request to the HSA, it will take awhile before the money finds its way into the joint account due to the holidays.
Respectfully, H"
I then remembered I never got all the important documents from her computer or her parents computer, so I sent her the following email as well.
"Hey W,
When you get a chance, can you please email over all my important documents from your laptop and your parents desktop?
From your laptop- things like tax returns, resumes, cover letters, those sorts of things
From your parents desktop- paycheck stubs from the Border Patrol, and documents that I saved to the desktop
I trust your judgment on what's important to send to me and what's not important as I cannot remember everything that is on each computer.
Once they are sent over, feel free to erase the files. Thank you.
Respectfully, H"
How'd I do?
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14
Working 8 hours today, then hitting up church with the family this evening. We're planning on going to see The Hobbit tomorrow in IMAX 3D, I love that theater.
Hoping for a good, drama free weekend, without any contact from W.
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14
We lived with them for a few months when we moved here. They gave us our own login on their desktop, I had saved a bunch of documents on there for our home closing.
I did not in any way, shape or form think of requesting to get them myself from either her or the IL computer. W put in the original D paperwork that I was to stay away from their home, her place of employment and that she would be the only one allowed to use the nice car. I'm really surpised there wasn't a restraining order attached! They had me made out to be a monster.
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14
