My Picnic Blanket

[willbwell]

busting,
the mood swings are there, but we can tell ourselves to stop. I think that when h 'acts' nice to me he picks up that I get hopeful. I am such an open book!
recently when those thoughts about ow creep in, I do tell myself (sometimes outloud if I am alone) stop! ow will never be me. I am not the type of person that does what this ow is doing. I am sad for h, that he is so lost. I am sad that he is trying to fill up some hole.

enjoy the holiday with your children Today regardless of what h is doing. You are a good caring mother. You are way better than that ow. Don't give her headspace.

I think for me, my D will start in earnest in the new year.I am drafting my Last resort letter to h. It will have to say, I let him go.... I will have to tell my children I will go along with the D because I do not want to fight or treat dad unkindly( now I will be smart in regards to finances)
I am in charge of me.
just recently said to s20- you get to decide who you want to be! We get to decide