I'm sorry, I know that came off a bit harsh, you just seem to really be in a hurry to get this over with one way or the other. I'm not sure why your pushing so hard.
Kate and I are just trying to say, its sooooo EARLY. Its all raw for you, added in with the holidays, your acting on pure emotion. That's to be expected after just a few weeks.
We're trying to help you, not critique you. Your making some of the most basic of mistakes right now. We've all been there. We just want you to see what your doing is not helping a thing/you/her right now. You need to do your best to step back, take a breath, and figure out a plan for yourself.
Nothing major, start with plans for tomorrow only. Work from there. Give yourself to the process, trust me, you'll get to a place emotionally/mentally/physically that you will be coping much better. Its going to take time thou. Are you willing to give it some time?
