Starting to get it

[mustardseed]

I posted the last post before I was finished because the kids walked in.

Anyway, Christmas Eve night, after everyone left and the kids had gone to bed and the house was put back together. I turned off the lights and sat on the catch with a glass of wine. There was some soft Christmas music playing in the background. For about 15 minutes I just SAT--no thinking of planning or analyzing how well the evening went. I watched the Christmas tree lights blink, then glanced at the Nativity sitting on the floor and said a quick happy birthday. I looked at the clock and saw it was exactly 12:00 am. That was my Christmas gift. 15 minutes of complete and utter peace. After I finished the wine I figured it was time to start preparing for Santa's visit so I went to the car to get the last of the gifts and when I came back in the lights were were back on, the Christmas music was upbeat and H was a busy elf wrapping and sorting. We worked in perfect harmony like good little elves who have perfected this task after so many years of pulling it off.

There are some things that we are so good at doing together. I am glad that despite this emotional roller coaster that we can still work as a team for the things that matter. That is my gift from DB. Because in the past I would have let my emotions dictate.