So how do I move forward? My goal is to keep the house, and work on credit. How do I handle husband? I think he believes I'm in denial. Do I continue to act chipper and as if he'd be a fool...? Do I just ignore him and let the attorney's do everything?
It is so painful to get kicked in the teeth at this time of year. Christmas was always my favorite time, I worked so hard to make things right for the family. I'm so torn. Part of me hopes his day was miserable, and thought provoking. The other side of me wants him to heal and get through the tunnel before he gets involved seriously.
I look around the house , and think " This may be the last Christmas here. " Then I look at some of the huge pieces of furniture and think " I cannot move that with women, it's too large and heavy. " My Christmas was filled with the back and forth of being in the now, and the uncertainty of the future.
I am overwhelmed , tired and fighting a cold. I want to just rest today, but can't because I have and appt. with an attorney.
I'll share more about the good of yesterday later, I have to get into the shower and look presentable. I don't want to cry in front of the attorney, but it is so fresh right now.
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
