We had a nice Christmas Went to church with the kids. H spent the night with the kids. He stayed all day but was sick so not great for him. We didn't talk much but interacted. I W's a good day as far as no fighting! I starting to feel feelings going away and being easier. I have bought of sadness during the day but controllable. H has a hard time looking me in the eyes...He was very nice considering when he is sick he's usually very grouchy! . H left before dinner was done because not feeling. I decided to text him and say I will bring him dinner when it's done Said that's nice but I don't have to. I Said it's xmas. So we did. If it wasn't I would not have! The kids were talking about New Year's My sister in law invited us to her house. The kids asked H if he was going. H said he might work. Then asked me if I was going. I said yes I was invited. He said i know just seeing if you're going. Last year I was sick. H told kids he would see about going and let them know. I feel he is really noticing my distance, lack of talking. Especially OW or R at all. We'll see...I'm trying my best to stay on this path.
M15 T19 D13 S13 BD Affair 9/13 S 11/13 D started 6/14.. dropped court date 10/14 H attorney can't get it together. Still with long distance ow. Still hates me.
