I feel similar to you. I kind of wish there were some smaller children to share the holiday with. Yesterday I went to my parents house, exchanged a few gifts and had to leave early due to the distance, and needing to go to work early tomorrow.
It was okay....throughout the last week I'm having trouble not thinking about how great my past couple of Christmases were with H. I can't even bring myself to watch any holiday shows. I'm not sitting in self-pity though. I got up today, worked out, and cooked lunch to take to work for the rest of the week. I've been saving the American Horror season 3 knowing full well that I could use a distraction today.
I think the added stress not relating to my H right now is probably making things seem worse than they are. In jan. I'll find out if I get my dream job, and if I get my tuition waived this upcoming semester, so I'm sitting on the edge of my seat hoping for the best.
