A twist on cake-eating & dropping a bomb of my own

[2Times2Many]

H was here for a few days and everything went well ... calm, no issues. He only initiated R talks once. He said to forget all the stuff he said when he was here last time about not wanting to be married, not wanting to be a husband and wanting a D. He said he really looked forward to texting with me while I had morning coffee and he watched the clock to get the timing right. He said on one day he was "giddy" about chatting with me. He said he had not expected that and asked me to give him some time to sort things out before we moved forward on any further separation.

He said nada about OW and I didn't ask. I don't know if she is still in the picture or not. And he is continuing with his plans for the business over there - which means he will be there a lot.

He asked if there was anything in particular I wanted for Christmas and I showed him some earrings online that I liked. He went to a local store to get them and said I wouldn't have liked them - that the picture was better than the real thing. He said the pair he bought were more expensive, but he knew I would like them much better. I was thrilled with them and his willingness to be a good Santa to me.

I have a huge credit with an airline because we cancelled a trip to Europe around BD. I told him I was planning to use it in April and asked if he thought I would be ok in my destination by myself (happens to be where we got engaged - familiar and compact - I can walk anywhere I want to go). He said he thought I would be fine there. Then he suggested that if I didn't mind, he could join me. I said of course he could if he wanted to. We'll see what happens from there.

I am still wary of these positives because I know he needs me here to help with the business. I don't want him to think he can continue to live the bachelor life over there with a GF and I will tolerate that over here. I will focus on the positives, but I need to hear that she is no longer in the picture! He knows that and I can't help but think that if that were the case he would announce it.

Our anniversary in Jan 6. Wonder if he will remember?

I spent Christmas with my sister and Mom. My daughter and her family drove over and I had a chance to visit with the grandkids. Not a bad Christmas considering the circumstances.

Hope everyone had a great holiday. I'm looking forward to a new year and will be wishing the best to everyone here!