So you're dating......good for you!

[CallaghanClown]

She doesn't hold a candle to me. I'm beautiful. I'm kind. I'm warm. I'm loving and I have two very special kids. I've shown more compassion towards my H and others since BD than I ever knew possible.

I'm not perfect and I certainly wasn't before, but I'm pretty good. The anger, resentment and frustration is 99% not here. I have days when it is but I don't show it to H. I have bad days with the kids still, but that's a work in progress......one day!

She's an old slapper that's worked her way around the town will little success......but that makes me feel worse. My H would rather be with her than me. But that's ego....I'm bruised, I'm hurt. I need to be good to myself. Tomorrow I'll take time for me.

Today was hard....very hard. The missing space at the table. The text message that he formally signed off as if I was nobody to him. The thoughtful presents. The crying kids. The insensitive family. The silly comments. The hugs. The questions. Aaaaahahhhhhhhh.

And breathe.