Thanks for the post labug, happy holidays to you all.

I kind of wish I had a child to make this day special for....but i am by my self.
I am not in a bad/sad mood though....i' m not in any mood at all really.

I just got a text from H that says "Merry Christmas Mimi!"

And I dont even know if I should respond because if I said the same, it wouldn't be sincere...

*shrugs* dont know what to do about anything any more..... just waiting for the miracle of some direction.

me: 30 H:30
tgthr:7 m:4
no kids
5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012
long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012
official BD: July 2013
nothing filed
1/1/14 I dropped the rope