It's ok if it's repeated over and over. Detachment isn't something that happens overnight. You will get there a step at a time.
Start small. Maybe tomorrow, just try to recognize how many times you think of H or you feel that stir of expectations come bubbling to the surface. JUST RECOGNIZE the feelings/thoughts when they come up.
You can do this. You are already doing it. He is on his own journey. Let him be.
Enjoy your son tomorrow.
Lots of Christmas Cheer,
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
