So you're dating......good for you!

[CallaghanClown]

Had a terrible moment earlier today. H facetime'd the girls and couldn't get them off soon enough, his que that he has better things to do. So my head spiralled to the fact he's taking his new OW out. I had a terrible down moment and spewed to a friend. I sent her all the hateful things I wanted to send to H.

It isn't half what he deserves but it helped. I felt better.

I feel down again now that I'm going to bed after arranging the presents and preparing Christmas Day. Another day he won't spend with his kids. His choice.....fool.

I've had such amazing fun with them today. Time he'll never be able to regain. But this Christmas has made me realise he never really had it. Nothing has changed. I'm doing everything. He was just a companion that watched. I want someone that participates.

Nothing has changed.....keep going.