One giant leap forward! - Part 9

[T1000]

I didn't text W back. Hers was a statement and it's lecturing tone angered me so I decided to repond in the morning.

FRIDAY
At 8:00 in the morning I sent:

Me: Got a couple of things to sort then I will set off. All being well I will be there between 11:30-12:00. Does this fit in for you?

On my way there I realized at 11:00 I was gonna be a 30 mins late so I went to text her and noticed the last message never sent. Sh*t!! I already knew she was gonna punish me for this.
I sent it anyway and then sent :
Me: Hitting traffic. Let you know when I'm 30 mins away.
W: After zero response from my text I didn't think you were getting them. My train was at 10.30. I'm on route to (2 hour train journey opposite direction from where I was coming from) with them.
Me: I text you at 8:00 this morning.
W: No you did not.

I lied and said I sent that one at 8:00 even though it never went.
She sent me a pic of when she got it.

Me: I sent it when i woke up.
W: You were originally meant to collect them this morning. I waited as long as I could.
Me: Why didn't you phone me??
W: Why didn't you turn on when you were supposed to?
Me: I was picking them up this morning, it's still the morning now. Didn't you think if you hadn't heard anything that something was wrong?
Me: So that's it me and the kids don't see each other this Xmas?
W: Why didn't you phone me?
W: Any way it's too late now
W: Not my fault you didn't turn up when you were supposed to.
Me: I didn't know you were getting on a train with them....you did!!!!!!!
Me: it's still the morning!!!!!!
W: You should have asked! And you said rather than collect them Thursday night you would collect them first thing Friday morning.
W: I'm done with you.
Me: When you siad I couldn't have them I had no food for them. I had to go and get stuff this morning.
W: Bullsh*t
Me: I've got a grocery reciept here to prove it.
W: You could have went first thing this morning. Not my fault someone kept you in bed.
W: Hope it was worth it
W: Then why didn't you go for groceries then? You chose shopping over your kids?
Me: I didn't see your text until 21:00 and I chose to finish wrapping their presents.
Me: Are you really on the train with them?
W: It's a good job for you that I'm back later today.
Me: What time?
W: Might be best you pick them up tomorrow morning.
Me: Okay
W: 9am......if you can manage it this time!
W: And to be clear...I do not want that girl near my kids until after Christmas. Too much is going on with S4 and it will only confuse him.

W: A response is usually required when someone sends you a message. Don't piss me off T1000 or I'll just stay here til Sunday.
Me: I will do my best to be there for 9 and I have no plans to see (friend) this weekend.
W: I'll get a social story printed up after new year for you to read to the kids. But be clear on this...do not introduce every little slag you plan on banging to the kids.
Me: Whats with all the name calling?
W: Who called who a name?
Me: You called her a trollup on the phone the other day. You just said 'every little slag'.
W: Did I? Well what little girl dates an old man like you knowing he has had a wife and kids. Trollop and slag come to mine.
Me: What does that make OM2?
W: A man willing to pick up the pieces that you left behind.
Me: Thats similar to how I feel.
W: Looooooool.......
W: Oh and buy the way...I think you're a pervert. Actually makes me feel sick.
W: And there are no pieces at your side.....everything is here!!!
W: I walked away from an immature little boy so maybe you're now on the same wave length as that young girl but I needed a real MAN in my life.
Me: If he makes you happy that's great. We all deserve to be happy.
W: Very true.


W: Do you have swimwear for the boys I could borrow?
Me: No they were too small.


W: I'm not getting back tonight now. Will have to let you know tomorrow what time I'll be back.
Me: Right

Seeing as I didn't have the kids me and my new friend spent the evening together and it was great!!

SATURDAY
Saturday morning I hadn't heard from W by 11:20 so I text:
Me: What time will you be back.
Afetr 30 mins
W: Will meet you in Toys R Us in (town 20 mins from here house)
Me: Prob be more like 13:30
W: Okay I will let you know I am then.

This place was 1.5 hours from where i am.
I was still in bed at this time. I had to shower, get dressed eat and take friend home. I didn't bother eating.
On the way there I text to say it would be nearer 14:00.

W: How many more times you gonna keep these kids waiting. They deserve better!!!

She phoned me to have a go while I was driving. Saying that she was only meeting me at this town as a favour to me.
Stupid thing is, just because it's 20 mins away from her house doesn't mean it's any nearer to me, the travel time is the same. Not only that it was her that decided to wait in a car park while I did a 1.5-2 hour journey.
Silly woman!
I was concerned for the last 20 mins that she wpould leave.
When I got there:
Me: Have you got S4's tablet.
W: No
Me: Them boxes that ou wanted are in the boot of the car.
W: I don't have room in my car.

I left without punching her in the head, my self control is at an all time high!

SUNDAY

This was the day I was doing xmas with the kids.

7:30 in the morning W text:
W: I hope that after this journey we are both going through, we will be were we are meant to be.
Me: I'm planning on filing the 2nd week in January.
W: Well I guess it will be clearing were we are meant to be.

W: Can you let me know how the kids are doing? Can you give me a time to skype the kids today?
Me: They're loving it! Probably won't have time today. I will let you know if we do.
W: Loving what? Really missing the kids....
W: It two mins to skype.
Me: We are doing xmas today. I'm trying to fit the nearly 4 days I would have had them into the 1.5 days i do have them so quite busy. If we get time I will let you know. xx

I was talking to friend at the same time and we put "xx" at the end of each text. Whoops. I was gonna correct it but thought it would do more harm than good.

W: I honestly thought we would have all spent Christmas together this year.
W: Can you please send me a few pics of them. Would you like to have them next weekend to spend some more time with them. I know how much they miss you and need you in their lives. X
Me: I thought I had them that weekedn anyway.
W: No that was my weekend.
Me: (Sent her some pics of the kids)
W: What is that thing S2 has in his hand. Can you send me a pic of them right one.
Me: Which one in his hand? Them right one??
W: Have you told to them it's Christmas day? Right hand on the play mat.
Me: Yes I have. It's an ABC tower of blocks. I sent you this on the 18th (sent her proof that I have the kids that weekend)
W: Sorry I've got my dates mixed up. Yeah they are there with you. I meant the weekend after that.
W: So like S2's birthday they think I'm not there on Christmas day. (crying smilie)
Me: It's Christmas Day with Dad. You will have yours.
W: (4 crying smilies)

MONDAY
Me: Still aiming for 12:00?
W: Yes. I'll give you the exact time I'll be at the junction.
W: It's not gonna be 12. More like half past.


TUESDAY
W sends me a video of the kids playing. It's a bout 3 seconds long and the back of the kids heads are on it for about 1/2 a second on the edge of the frame. Strange video indeed.




I feel okay about xmas day tomorrow and no kids. In a way it feels like I have two xmas days. One all mental and hyper with the kids and another where I get to chill out and relax.
I'm so glad I got the chance to get used to it over the last few months.

Having my new friend to spend time with has also helped in many ways. We are both aware that it's some fun right now. Spending time with and talking to a woman that see's all the good I do and have to offer is quite an eye opener. It tops up my confidence where it was maybe lacking.

There are sooo may times during conversations with W that I could get nasty and vent myself but I hold back and try to be the better person.


I'm finding that I am lying to W to stay out of her bad books. Saying things like "I have no plans to see friend" is my way of not committing to what I'm saying. Something I have been trying to stop, something that really pi**es W off.

If I'm totally honest with W on why I might be late or anything that doesn't add up in her life she punishes me via the kids or verbally. The lying is to protect what I do have.
I suppose one good thing is that I'm completely aware that I'm doing it.

That's about it for now.
Feeling good on this xmas eve!
I never expected I would be saying that.

Merry Christmas everyone!