Back Again!!

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Thanks AJ!! I'm trying to be strong... Really!! I don't know why it stings bc it makes logical sense to everyone but me. I closed all the accounts and any access to money since he took my last paycheck. Christmas time is difficult. He actually took our kids this week which is the only real time he has spent w them all yr. he invited me to spend the holiday at his apt but I refused. This was his decision. He wasn't happy he wanted a new life. I would find it awkward to go to his new apt.

And yes... It takes me a while to actually make a decision but once I make it I stick to it. He is not on drugs but a very angry person.

Oh...and he has suddenly found god. I am not at all against religion but to me it seems hypocritical after all he has and continues to do to myself and the kids. He wouldn't step foot in a house of worship before. It all goes along with the who is this person question mark that always makes me upset.

Thanks for the advice!! I'm still trying to find myself. After 15yrs of marriage I lost myself somewhere. Trying to figure out again how to be happy w me.