I understand that may be best. they are very frustrated by what appears to be a person taking advantage of the sitch ad hurting me. they don't understand why I just don't move on. Other than her parents telling me they weren't pleased about this, I told her family I won't discuss it out of respect for her.
I am letting her go. My days flow between joy, hope for a bright future, anger at her for choosing to run instead of fight (my perception) and overwhelming sorrow for the good times we did have. Although, the past 10 years have really been rocky. I don't know what comes next but I am continuing to limit contact to essential only. I am also working "as if" when I see her. Not always easy.
me: 47, W:49 M 16.5 years T 17 years Three kids - D17,D14, S13 Heart 2 heart about M 11/8/13 Bomb drop 11/29/13 W moved out 12/5/13 I Retained L 2/20/14 D filed 3/17/14
