As I sit in my living room wrapping all my boys presents alone, W lays in the bed where she has spent the last 6 months. I never imagined it would come to this. The moment where the mother of my children basically is a non participant in their Christmas. I am surrounded by the gifts that I bought, that gifts that I will wrap, and the the stockings that I stuffed. I just never saw this much coming I am still incredulous as to what this MLC has done to her. This malfunction, this disease, this depression, this mess has taken a loving beautiful woman who loved her children and lives for these moments in their lives and turned her into a selfish, detached teenager. I don't care if she ever loves me again. I just hope she can save herself.
As for me, I baked cookies tonight for everyone as she hid in her room texting and messaging for 3 hours. I will wrap presents and look forward to a great Christmas Eve tomorrow. My boys will not be hurt by this. They will enjoy it and we will continue to make new traditions. I'm a big boy and I'll take the crap. As their Daddy, it's my job to make sure their next 2 days are awesome.
BTW, I did appeal to her as she laid in the bed about helping with the chores around the house. I said "I know you haven't felt very good for a while, but I sure would appreciate some help with all the chores." She asked for clarification as to what I meant and I said "Dishes, laundry, floors, bathrooms, trash, litter boxes, feeding animals, etc. It would be great to get some help with it all." I left it at that.
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Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
