I don’t expect anything for the anniversary. He didn’t acknowledge it last year also, because according to him we were done. Our anniversary doesn’t mean anything to him anymore. I just think it would be super insensitive for him to clear out his stuff from the house on this date. It makes me think that he doesn’t have any feelings anymore and he thinks that I don’t either. I just cannot believe that I don’t matter anymore. It still hurts... I don’t even know what I’m writing anymore… I’m like a tiger in a case, pacing from one side to another trying to escape, but there is no escape.
On a positive note, my son and his GF went and got a tree for me tonight. We decorated it and it looks great. And smells great too! I love this smell. I’m grateful that I have my son and my family. And my dog!
Merry Christmas to everyone!
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
