I'm sorry about the anniversary coming up Bright. Mine was right after BD, a month after. And I got nothing from him. He was totally zoned out that day and depressed thinking how we'd been M 25 years. It was awful. I was able to get him out to dinner, but he had the dark look and frowned most of the evening. I'd already gotten him a card a a nice present so I gave it to him. But it felt very unappreciated. I'm sorry it made you cry.
It hurts because we get no resolution or feedback and we think it is all our fault. It is not our fault. They would have done this if we had been with them or not. I can see you still place a lot of the blame on yourself. Let it go. You are not to blame for his bad choices and hurtful behavior. You will get there, just be patient with yourself and get those feelings out.
I am rooting right next to Portia for you!!
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
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