Reaching out for support and advice!!

[bluesgal]

Oh gosh, thanks guys. I can't tell you how much I needed this encouragement today. My emotions just threw all my DB out the window. In fact, once we started arguing, (yes, I can't believe I gave him an argument) I could hear myself think "Stop, walk away, don't do this" But I did anyway. I was OUT OF CONTROL!

I was angry at him for those hurtful comments. I was sooo not detached. I was pathetic. I'm angry at myself for letting his anger get to me. And, you're right. I am going to try to recommit to DB. Does anyone else think this is a lot like 'starting my diet on Monday?'

Ah, the agony of this broken record in my life. I have some time to myself this week. I will reread Sandi's rules, review some inspiring posts, GAL, and try my best at PMA.

This is not easy. I was doing really well for awhile and felt so much stronger. I really think this is stemming from my control issues. I simply can't strong arm my H into loving me again or choosing his M. I am throwing a grown up temper tantrum all while being angry at my H for acting like a teenager. 2 wrongs don't make a right and I know better than this. I am better than this. I, too, want to handle this with grace and dignity. I will power through and push forward. I will pray for strength again.