Labug-you are always so rational. Logically, I know D will cause immense pain in many different ways. Emotionally, I want to cut and run from this horrible game of blame and anger.
H told me today that he fell out of love a long time ago. Told me he continues to lie to me because it's easier and he doesn't want to deal with me. Told me not to worry about him because he's not mine to worry about.
Those comments are awful. I feel like he is punishing me now. He is punishing me for the hurt I've caused him. He will justify his mean/rude behavior by saying, you did (fill in the blank) for years so what's the difference.
It's so funny. Yesterday when we were sledding as a family, my S6 started pouting that he wasn't the fastest sledder and could not go the farthest. So, he decided to stay at the top of the hill and pout. My H told S that it's his choice to stay and pout or keep sledding. But, we're all going to keep sledding and having fun, so the only person he's hurting is himself. You could have blown me over with a feather. Why can't H see that by holding on to anger and resentment while the rest of us GAL, he's hurting himself???
I can't believe what a major backslide I've had with DB these last couple of days. I may as well dig myself a hole!!
Me:33 H:35 M: 12 years D-15 S-6 Bomb: 6-2013 OW: 11/2013 Kids and I moved out: 11/2013 when he continued to lie about affair Kids and I moved back in 12/2013 H moved out 2/2014
