Pud,

I am sorry you are having some ups and downs. The holidays make it worse, I think. They do for me.

Try to turn your back on it all, including H for the Holiday Week. Think about what you would like to do - tomorrow, like Scarlett O'Hara.

Once you do get some peace time to think about things, then you decide what is best for you.

Wishing you all the best!