I understand,

Sometimes a break can be just what the Dr. ordered, it helps put things back into perspective, allows us to clear our heads a bit in certain ways. But don't fool yourself, they're still just as stressful. Only time will help with that.

Its hard to just shut off 19 years of interactions, even when they weren't all good. You get used to that being your normal.

Now you have to get used to the "new normal", or this version of it anyways. Glad you got out with a friend, bet that felt great to break from it all a bit.