Thanks UR. Just had a little pity party last night. It's so frustrating. You are right in that I won't be satisfied if I don't give it my all. It seems there have been several of these times where I felt so great about myself for things I had done to better myself and W always steps up to destroy it with crap.
As I reflect this morning, last nights R talk contained no new information, no revelations, nothing she hasn't said before. Also, I still went caroling with my sons and others to bring a little happiness to folks that really needed it. A beautiful lady was brought to tears last night because of our presence and our act of kindness. That was a moving experience that I shared with my sons and that is what was new and important last night. I was moved to tears by that moment, not the moment when my W told me she didn't love me again.
I am OK. I am tired and frustrated, but I am OK. Going to see my mother for Christmas today. I'm going to have a great time and enjoy being with her. That is my choice and she cannot F that up no matter how hard she tries.
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Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
