It's Not Over 'Till It's Over

[Fight4MyWife]

At first I would contact her out of desperation, however this last few days I have actually begun to feel the most detached I have ever been & feeling that I can be happy with my life whatever happens.

This actually gave me the attitude of "I've got nothing to lose" by contacting her. If it does harm my situation then it doesn't matter cos I can be happy whatever & it "might actually help my situation and she'll come running back with open arms", obviously that didn't happen and I regret contacting her now.

Whether it's out of desperation or indifference to the outcome when I have something I want to express I find it very hard not to express it, this has always been the case even with trivial things. It will niggle & bug me constantly & the only way that feeling will go away is when I give in & express what I want to get off my chest.