3 I had a talk this week in therapy about the same thing. The fog of the LBS is lifting and I am really starting to see H for who he is now. I am looking at his actions and ongoing lies and think he is just sad ( as in pathetic). I also feel the other kind of gut wrenching sadness when I see his increasing alcohol problem affecting relationship with kids.
You def need to keep detaching. The anger and hate won't do much for him but will only make you sick and miserable.
I agree that many of your posts have been so positive and inspiring. I hope you can have a fun and relaxing end of year with your kiddos.
Me 44 H 42 M 10 T 12 (at time of BD) Ss 20 16 S11 (special needs)
BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom 10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied S and I move out 3/15