3-sorry to hear that you are having a tough time. I think many of us LBS put our WAS on pedestals. We are scared and often blindsided. We have a tendency to remember all the good times and memories while they launch an assault at us with all the bad...and rewrite history to boot.
As we DB and slowly detach (even if it's a struggle) I think we see the bloom is off the rose, so to speak. We begin to see not only the situation we're in, but have a new outsiders look at our WAS contribution to the mess. Then, we see how they are handling it and it hurts even more.
You are not alone, 3. You have been such an uplifting spirit on these forums. I know you will power through
Me:33 H:35 M: 12 years D-15 S-6 Bomb: 6-2013 OW: 11/2013 Kids and I moved out: 11/2013 when he continued to lie about affair Kids and I moved back in 12/2013 H moved out 2/2014