H in MLC, trying to DB

[movinup]

Trying to get into the Christmas spirit today. I need to wrap presents but I HATE doing it. My cold is better but I'm still wiped out and it's grey and rainy so all I want to do is sleep. What I need to do is clean the house and wrap these gifts! Maybe by bed time I'll be finished. LOL

I was messing with my phone last night and saw that I could load messages from this summer. I looked back at H's messages to me and he didn't seem miserable and wanting to leave. He seemed fairly content to be depressed and always saying he couldn't wait to be home, checking to see what D and I were up to during the day. Probably not a good idea to revisit those times but I had almost convinced myself that he had been miserable and I overlooked it like he said. Nope, he was ok, depressed but not withdrawn. This ish is crazy!

Now I'm off to wrap presents, or google how to put on eye makeup. Yeah, I'll probably be Googling. LOL