"in what universe...?" part 6

[TryingToDo180]

Went to Church this morning, we sang this hymn that ends with the line "most highly favoured lady" but for some reason I kept singing "most highly flavoured lady" lol. It rolled off the tongue better hehe.
H came in after the service for a coffee. He's taking our son out shopping today for my card and present and they're off to McDs for lunch, so I've got some alone time for a bit I asked him what he was doing on Christmas Day and he said he was going round to his mate's, but not until the afternoon. He said he's bought a small bottle of fizz for them to have a glass each. He said he'll have breakfast on his own. I believe him or he wouldn't be going into detail about what he's doing or maybe he had the story already prepared to tell me. It might be the breakfast he's telling fibs about. Whatever it is, I'm not that fussed anyway
At least I know I don't have to cater for him as well and I don't have to buy bisto gravy and paxo, lol. He doesn't like homemade gravy and stuffing balls, but me and my son do
He was very much the old H today, very strange. He is starting to reminisce about this phrase we used to say that came out of a book. We both couldn't remember it. He offered me a lift back home and then beeped his hoen as he drove off for me to turn around and wave.
He also mentioned that he wanted to save up for a kindle. I thought to myself, I thought you wanted to save up for a divorce but I obviously didn't say anything.
When he's like this I get confused on my feelings for him. I don't know if I still love him, I've got a lot of hurt to get over first, but I do still like him. I am starting to detach now and make a life for myself in case he doesn't come back. I find myself fantasising a lot about my latest wish list I don't mean fantasising as in bedroom antics, lol, just before you get any ideas Just thinking what it would be like if I was spending Christmas with him that's all