Learning from yesterday, Living for today!

[chasingpavements]

I am a little bit worried about his comment this morning. Subconciously he feels he punishes me by withholding affection from me. Should I be worried? I have felt this over the years, the feeling that I have done something wrong. Or that he is somehow making me pay for my mistakes. It makes sense now that I realize he had all of these resentments. Does he even like me? Has he ever? will he ever again? He is coming clean now and opening up, yet I still wonder sometimes. Am I wasting my time on someone that doesn't or will never care about me?

What can I do now? I am trying so hard, but does it matter at all if he doesn't recognize who I am now versus who I was back then? Will he ever be able to truly forgive me?

Hopefully I will get a lot of answers during our counseling.