Hey HWA. Feelings change but I think the biggest is that you are in your home turf now, where you want to be. You were lonely, and miserable at the old place, even though you tried to make the most of it. A lot of those feelings towards your W were probably a lot to do with needing to make the change and getting out of that rut. You are in the light now, so hanging on to her doesn't seem so important. She is not the entire answer to your happiness. You did what you needed to do. You can rest easy now so go get on with life. Lucky you.