Wife Said She's Done

[OneDay]

The past 2 days have been really good for me. Im finally beginning to Detach. Im mean really detach, and it feels good. I now realize there is nothing I can say to change my W mind about D. There maybe nothing I can "personally" do for my W to change her mind about D. She has made the choice to D me, and I have come to accept that. I dont personally like it, but I accept it. The more I detach, the more I realize how mess up we both were in our relationship. For Example;

She took the boys over to the inlaws for an early christmas tonight (i was not invited) Which is okay because it would have been awkward anyway. She was suppose to be there at 5pm, but as usual was running late, and she HATES being late. She had to leave in 20 mins and she was still wrapping presents, was not dressed, or made up in away and she still had to stop by Publix to pick up dessert. Well she finally left the house at 4:55pm and there was no was she was going to be on time. As I was sitting there, i could tell she was getting more and more anxious and I just sat there(which is a 180 for me, as I would usually be busting my butt to help) I laughed inside, as it has always been my fault that were late. Its my "carefree, laid-back, whatever attitude (as she would say) that makes us late." "If you dont want to go, then stay home." I would hear it all. She would have been angry and upset at me the whole way to the inlaws and more than likely we would not have spoke very much once over there.

The more I recall these event the easier it to detach. The more I think, maybe she's doing me a favor by getting a D. Maybe I can live my life the way I want to live it, and be truly happy. These are all just thoughts, and I have to be careful that I am detaching and not withdrawing.

More than anything, I've come to realize that if this Marriage will/was ever going to work that we BOTH need to change our ways and communication. And if we do reconcile, it might even be harder to fix our R than what I'm going through now.