How are you doing? I know you are under considerable stress and w/the holidays approaching, it's going to be even more so. When will your daughters actually be home for a few days?

I do worry about you because I can tell from your postings that your mind is running around in circles like a hamster's wheel at full throttle. Please take care of yourself. It's important that you eat properly, get plenty of rest and take your vitamins and meds, if you have them.

Ask questions here, but remember, we all have experienced things differently.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.