Actually, no...I thought about it. But I want to start with something simple and not very much maintenance.
One of the suggestions I found, which I'll do, is to dig trench in the ground and then fill the trench with wood chips. A big bag is about $3.00, so that's in my price range! Lol.
If you want to see what the heck I'm talking about...go here:
Still sounds neat. When I lived in the country I always wanted a maze with evergreen trees. Never did get it planted, although I planted lots of trees!!!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I'm very excited about it! I may end up upgrading my labyrinth at some point...but even starting small, with just the wood chips is going to be a big project, thanks to all the trash out there! Trees would be nice...give me a bit more privacy from my neighbors watching.
"Hey, look, that crazy lady is out there walking around in circles again!" Lol. Can you imagine?
I've been wearing my pedometer daily for awhile now. The goal is to do at least 3 miles a day. I got up to 2.5 yesterday, with my working outside. I hope to make 3 today, by running to the bathroom upstairs, instead of the one that's close to my office.
Yesterday was a tough day for me. And I was not a pleasant person.
My University was shut down to snow/ice. Woo hoo!
Cept my husband had to go into work. So, I was freaking out. Very mad that my husband and to drive 1.5 hours in dangerous weather. He said the roads were fine, and that he would be safe...and he promised me he'd call me when he got there to let me know he was safe.
So, he forgot to call.
I ended up going berserk.
I called his phone, no answer. Called the tech shop, no answer.
I called Customer Service, and on the first phone call, a guy picked up the phone, laughed into it and hung up.
After that, I kept calling back, frantic to get in touch with someone just to know that my husband was safe.
But this jerk at customer service kept lifting up the phone and hanging it up, without saying a word to me or giving me a chance to say anything.
I kept calling different phone numbers, and finally my husband answered his direct line.
I blew it.
Told him I was so upset, I'd been calling frantically. Told him about customer service.
Etc.
I felt needy, out of control, and panicky.
Not fun.
He handled it very well.
He apologized profusely. Told me he completely forgot to call as things were chaos right when he walked in.
Gave me another phone number to call. (Course, I called it later and it said, "Sorry this number has been disconnected." So, will have ask him for another phone number as that one isn't working.)
Then, before he left for the day, he called me and apologized again. Said it was his fault for not calling me like he said. And that he was so sorry for causing me to panic. He must have listened to the messages I left.
Dang, I hate losing control like that.
But, guys, you'd have been very proud of him!
I recovered from it, told him I was just relieved he was safe and that I couldn't wait to see him when he got home. That perked him up! I could tell he started smiling again...it's amazing how you can hear a smile on the phone.
Anyway, he handled my freakout well and gave me more positives for my journal.
PIB, I know you must have felt like crap but its on, he didnt take it the wrong way you your doing great! You are in a new spot now and he knows you are doing this because you care, and not out of being needy. Dont worry much over this and just keep on doing what you do best!
Anything worth having is worth working HARD for!
Making a New Move
PnB, You always put a smile on my face each time I visit.
You are an excellent role model on raising your standards that you hold yourself to, but don't go so far as to hold them so high that they will not allow you to experience the normal range of human emotions. There will be times where you get angry at him or anyone else for that matter ... times where you will panic or freakout. We're human and it will happen from time to time ... so don't beat yourself up for eliminating these emotions. Not gonna happen, BUT we can restain from them becoming a habitual reaction.
If nine times out of ten we show restraint and do what works, then that sets the expectation that we are holding ourselves to the best of our ability and no one will think any less of us for that one outburst.
So long as we don't repeat the outburst often enough that it becomes an expected response, it won't be a problem ... its not the emotional outburst that's bad ... it's when the outburst becomes an expected response.
Boy was that a long-winded way of saying ...
PnB, don't beat yourself up over just one incident.
