I don't know if I know how to actually post to one of these, and I think I already posted an intro, but I'm gonna try again I am 35, my wife is 31. We've been together for nine years and have been married for 5. We have three children 12/6/2. We have had issues throughout our marriage, mostly my issues with honesty, and finances. After separating in July of this year, she moved out with the kids, they then moved back in September. So the kids could start school. When she was first back we were focused, attending counseling, and making us a priority. And then of course life happens, and we gradually stopped our efforts. She started backing away emotionally, and I became more and more aggravated, until last Saturday night at my Christmas party. After too much alcohol, I accused her of flirting with someone and verbally assaulted her. That night she asked me to move out. But she said that I could wait till after the holidays. So now we have a crap load of family Holliday events to attend, and I don't know if I can handle it. I don't want to leave, and I don't want it to end....
So as I've been waiting for my membership to be approved here I've been learning a lot of good stuff here, and I am trying to put it into practice. But it's so freaking hard to maintain when we are acting as if everything outside of me and her is ok...we're even still sleeping in the same bed with a pillow in between us.
Imam reaching out for something to help me thru this.
