Settling in for the long road ahead

[Liberty3]

H and I met up yesterday to sign some stuff at the bank. He then came back here with me for the afternoon!!! Afterwards I suggested that he took me out for tea (I did say that we had got it the wrong way round and dinner was supposed to one first!) and we got fish and chips and ate by the river. We discussed our upcoming business trip after Christmas, and H said he would like to do a brief sightseeing stop and was there anything I wanted to look at on the way.

Afterwards we walked along the river, a power walking walk, no romantic stroll! H mentioned a friend of ours who is having some similar midlife issues and said that he thought he wasOK with where he is now regarding work and our relationship. I didn't mention much, just sort of nodded and agreed. H mentioned again that he doesn't know where he is regarding us, and would prefer not to do anything until he has his 'lightbulb moment'. He can see that I have changed but he doesn't know if he wants to be with me, that the fifteen years that I have pushed him away is a lot to get over. I said that I didn't agree it was as long as fifteen years but we would have to agree to disagree over that. Also that I looked upon him having tea and a walk as a positive, he could have said no if he had wanted to.

I've arranged to talk to a DB counsellor in the New Year. I feel I need some guidance on the best way to proceed from here.

And AS, I did sound a bit irrational in my last post didnt I? Thanks for bringing me back to earth with that one word