Today is NOT a good day. H texted me all night...calling me names...and I let myself get drawn into yet, another, nasty fight. ______________________________________________________________
He "tried" to do that at Thanksgiving with the kids but his family wanted me there, too, so I went.
And, then H had a HUGE fit about it, later....said I was trying to "weasel" my way into his family, etc. (Um, we've been together 16 years....I'm already IN his family, but whatever!)
The difference this time is that some of his family are on his side. I found out this morning that he told them all last weekend, while he was there hunting, that he is filing for D after Christmas. So, some of them don't want me there for Christmas.
His mom wants me there, but not his sister. She's turned into a back stabbing lady, for sure. She accused me of lying and making this stuff up. Said the didn't believe the affair even happened. Whatever.
The kids are sad. I'm trying to protect them but he keeps making it my fault. Keeps trying to put the kids in the middle.
I'm just so exhausted.
The truth is....I feel so low today that I don't WANT to go decorate H's grandma's tree tomorrow with all of them...
And, my bday is on Christmas Day and I don't want to spend it with H or his family or MY family.
H is an @$$. His family is believing every single lie he is telling them. My family won't leave me alone about leaving H. I just want to be away from it all.
I only want to be around my kids. Period.
If I had the money, I'd go away for Christmas break! Tell all of them to F off....except my sweet kiddos, of course!
