WR, Tis the season for miracles and reflections. It's the time to pray for those who are very lost.
Your father knows things and he has spoken to you very wisely. Listen to him...leave the door ajar, but continue moving forward.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.