I got the job I wanted! So, I feel a bit more confident about being able to support myself and my daughter. The money is great, but to start it has no benefits or pension. Its a real opportunity though. Im feeling back on track. Proactive.
Yesturday my husband told me that when he told his family we were divorcing, his sister immediately piped up that I had cheated on him in Paris (she came with) . Thre is NOTHING that could be further than the truth. Fidelity is of utmost importance to my persoanl integrity & my husbands constant infidelity is what created the the destruction of our relationship.
I cannot for the life of me imagine why she would say such a horrible thing, given that we have shared many confidences.
It hurt me. My husband said he didnt believe her. But I was angered that such a discussion would even be entertained & that he would allow it.
It ended up with me in tears and him name calling me all of the things he always does.
Creating distance just got easier. I dont know today where i want to go with this marriage - but I do know that I am done with this. I dont want this garbage in my life. i am focusing on other healthier things.
And I can. I AM strong enough. I am feeling just a little bit like the woman I used to be.
