Hoping to still move forward, huge setback

[cbtdad]

LTH, that's the problem. No kissing, no hugging, no hand holding, she doesn't like to cuddle, etc
So unless she just straight up says lets have sex I have no clue when or if she is in the mood. I'm having a hard time with this because I want sex. At least once a week or I get frustrated. It's just the way I'm wired.
It's something she knows about and she knows about the touching issues.
Like we discussed yesterday in MC, she knows how important PT is to me an it makes me feel loved.
The problem I'm having, like I'm discussing in MC, is that she hasn't always been like this. This started a couple o years ago. She was never into PT as much as me, but she didn't pull away when I tried to cuddle. She kissed. She instigated sex, etc
The other problem is the fact that for 6 months with an OM she did instigate sex, kiss, all those things I want. Yet she can't do that with me. Kind of hard not to take it personally.
Tonight she is going to a Christmas party where OM's friends and family will be at and very possibly OM hisself. She said she would be home by 10, but it still bothers me and she is going no matter what. I am trying very hard to keep my cool and not be angry about this.
Like I told her it is hurtful to me that she would go spend time with this guys fanily members and that I would i never do that to her because I care so much for her and her feelings.
This is not easy, I understand why she wants to go because im working late and there are actually other friends there as well.
It's just kills me when she says things like, "I don't want to be rude, I already said I would go"
I'm like its not ok to be rude to people you hardly know, but forget about my feelings and how much this hurts and how hard this is to get over, especially when you keep wanting to hang out with these people.
Just gets me upset. I'm trying to have a whole lot of patience!!