As a parent, my primary goal for my children is that they end up a better person than what I am. Very simple actually. Yet you feel that you were a bad son. The irony being, is that you learned from your father what didn't work and now you're walking a different path with your boys.
So in reality what your dad did and how he responded to his life situation has now affected your life situation. You are responding differently, but in your response lays success for both of you. If you can see the forest through the trees.....I can guarantee your father would be proud of you at the moment and you would see that while your were angry in the past....it set you on the path for dealing with the present.
