Fear, as well as jealousy. I think that my fear and jealousy had become a self-fulfilling prophecy, if that makes sense. I got so worried about my husband and fearing he would leave that it eventually got me there.
I am working at trying to get out of that mindset, of being afraid of what could happen in the future. In a way I am afraid of moving forward, but not enough to hold me back. I am going to go all in, and I am not worried about the consequences for once. I am actually ok, I know I will be fine. It's almost as though I have faced my demons, when he left I felt pain, but I survived. And it was empowering to know that I could do it.
M: 8 yrs T:14 Twins:7 S:5 BD:'NLILWY': Feb/2013 Mar/Apr/May: MC June: "living in limbo" Sept 12: H moves out Oct 20: reconciling Jan-Feb 2014:MC Feb 2014: separating, and H moved out.
