True, I have felt as you have. Deep into my soul. Not good enough, not worthy. Heard it my whole life from my mother and my xh.
I have written about my mirrors. The ones I had were from broken people, so what they reflected back was broken, too.
So, I needed to get new ones. I watched how people reacted to me. Felt how people felt about me. Put myself out there more in order to do that, to get that.
And then I worked on the most important mirror. My own. I decided what I needed to see in order to feel worthy, whole, loved, enough.
I needed to see and feek that I was a good person, that I lived a worthy life. I needed to know that I was a good mother, a good sister, aunt, friend. I knew I wanted to act with dignity and grace and that I had the traits I needed in order to do that.
I know that my mother and my h were wrong about me. I know that because of what I see reflected back to me - in people's words and actions and hearts.
True, I know how much you want to be a great dad. I know how big your heart is, how hard you worked, how much you care.
So, shine up your own mirror, T, and see what everyone else sees.
