I have said many times that he missed the ultimate opportunity to be my hero then.
How do you feel about him because of that?
Originally Posted By: j
We disconnected as he went into depression and went out to a local club regularly instead of being there for me. I wasn't there for him either.
Did he ask you to be there for him? In what way do you think you could have been there for him? In what way was he not there for you?
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We both dropped the ball, but we didn't know any better.
That is an easy answer for you then. What about now? What about the man you are becoming and the new J?
I am not trying to dredge up more guilt than you may already feel. You can't redo the past but you also aren't done with it yet.
Because this...
Originally Posted By: J
I have carried a lot of misunderstanding and guilt because of our relationship. I have felt like I was a bad son, especially in the end. I have felt like he abandoned me emotionally in a great time of need.
Is what you must look at with brutal truth.
Why do you feel guilty? What duty did you owe him? Why did you not fulfill it?
You can lie to yourself and you are f@cked
Believe those lies and you have failed.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
