Hold on PnB and just go with the flow for now ... its OK to feel off every once in a while ... tomorrow morning when you wake up, don't forget to ask yourself ... "So what can I do today to make it better than yesterday?"
Thanks KAW.
And you are right....this is our version of 'Tool Time'.
Monkey IS able to see what he's doing and how self-serving it is.
He not only sees that he's saying cruel things to me just to 'bolster his case' he's telling me what he's doing!!
So, now I can stop being scared that there's something I didn't see, or that I'm not facing reality, because he's flat out told me that when he's attacking, he 'rewrites history to suit him.'
I have to tell you, that's one thing I was extremely worried about with my depression. Was I remembering things wrong? Was his version of our marriage the reality?
Etc etc.
Thus to have him admit to me that he was 'rewriting history to bolster his case' is wonderful.
And hopefully, now he will cease using this fighting tool.