Husband has been asked to perform the marriage ceremony for some friends at their home on New Year's Eve. He didnt ask me to join him, but he asked if I WANTED to join him. I could tell it was because he felt sorry for me. I have no holiday plans really. All of my social plans have revolved around him for the past 8 years.

I certainly do not want him feeling sorry for me! First because...I just dont want his sympathy and next because I dont want to push him away by making him feel guilty.

So, I told him NO thank you, but that he should go because it is an honor to be asked.

New Year's Eve we got engaged.

Im going to make some plans. I hope he accepts too because, geez - wouldnt that make him, I dont know, THINK? But again, I dont want to do the guilt thing. Thats a 180 for me.


M: 49. H: 49
D: 17
Married: 8.5
Bomb: 11/09/13