I want to change into the Godly, kind, forgiving, wonderful woman that God wants me to be...but I don't want to be a doormat, either.
The line between the two is razor thin, and fuzzy because of situation differences. And unique to you.
Sarcasm/catty is often times veiled anger and passive aggressive. And I should know, I used to think sarcasm was the highest art form of humor.
Which begs the question, what is the MOTIVE behind the sarcasm/catty? Which may lead to some insight into this question:
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At what point are we changing ourselves too much? For our H or for ourselves?
Or, is this the more mature, grown up ME that I am meant to become?
Do you have an idea defined for who you want to be, even if not complete?
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I am fighting (is this even the right word?) my way back to becoming the more positive, fun person I used to be...but I feel like I'm also changing in other ways that I hadn't planned on.
I've become more quiet, more introspective....slower to react...and I feel like I'm constantly stuffing my own feelings down so that I don't overreact to something. Is this ok? Or unhealthy? I'm not sure yet.
Being a Mr. Spock type myself, and years of martial arts training, I can't see where the bold above is a problem...
But how does that feel? Do you feel more in control of you? Does it work to slow down the reaction, maybe it avoids having to do damage control after the fact? Is that valuable to you?
When you stuff the feelings of the moment down, do you still acknowledge them, maybe tell them you will attend to them later, at a better time than the present? And do you follow through and attend to them later?
Just some questions and thoughts, I am going through another cycle of all that up there ^^^. I'm asking myself along with you...
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
